I don't know about you, but for me.... I am way harder on myself then I am on ANYONE else! Sometimes I forget that that is why I am so angry/b*tchy/crappy/contrary and I take it out on others,... which is not cool. But the truth of the matter is; I am mad at myself -- knock down, drag out, ass kickin' mad! Unfortunately, or perhaps fortunately, we can't do that to ourselves... so, instead, we take it out on others. I've been thinking about this for a few days and, serendipitously, my good friend Lee posted this on face book today, ...
"Without forgiveness life is governed by... an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation."
When I started my 21 day Shakeology Challenge, I knew I was aiming high. I did so on purpose. My life is a bit insane right now on so many fronts and this was, at this point, just adding one more thing. I intend for this to be a lifestyle and a habit from here on out though,... so might as well aim high early! ... Well, I "fell off the horse" ....
And I was mad at myself. And then I was mad at my boyfriend. And then I was mad at work. ... And pretty soon I was just miserable. TOTALLY NOT COOL. So, today, I set my alarm to an ungodly hour, only hit the snooze once,... and then got up and pushed play!
I considered "scrapping" this challenge and starting over so I could do it "right", or perfect... but I've decided not to because life doesn't happen that way. I am on day 17 of 21. I have exercised only a handful of days out of those 17,.. this I can not change. But what I have done consistently all 21 days is have a chocolate Shakeology meal replacement. ... I am very proud of this because, even with "falling off the horse" and not making the best possible food choices... I still am down 2 1/2 lbs! Yay Shakeology and look out DVD player,.... you're about to get a lot more use!
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